I have decided to remove this post as over half of it was personal. There are some things that are so personal and so tragic to one that it cannot be put in words adequately. Words can cheapen and diminish the effects of the entirety of a set of circumstances upon ones life. It used to be that when a man or woman had something tragic happen to him, even if he was in the public eye and in a position of authority, that it was said of him that it was so personal to him that he never spoke upon it publicly. There are some things better left unsaid.